A Momma’s Heart

I remember before we had kiddos, and all I had to think about in this world was myself and the hubby.  But lets be honest, mostly myself.  We seem to be selfish by nature.

Then I had Tate.

Boy did that blow the selfishness right out of the water, and honestly I had  bit of a hard time adjusting.  I dreamed of being a Momma my whole life and when it actually came to be I remember having a melt down and crying, “I’m never gonna get to sleep in again!” Ha.  The hormones didn’t help.

I did settle into  motherhood though, and soon new worries seemed to take over.  I remember one night thinking of how much responsibility is truly on us for raising these kiddos.  I was worried I wasn’t going to raise them with a strong enough integrity, or love for others, or even more, a love for God.

And lately the worries seem to creep up more and more.  Maybe its the changes I see in the world.  Maybe it’s that my kids are getting older. Or maybe it’s because I realize now more than ever how short lived this world is and how eternity is waiting.  My kids souls are at stake.  As sweet and tender as their hearts are now, and how much they love Jesus, I know He gave us each free will.  And as much as I wish we could love Jesus for them, I have to realize that that is going to have to be their own personal choice they have to make.  And in a world with mixed morals, subtle messages everywhere, and worldly draws, I have realized that the only thing I can do is PRAY.

Pray like crazy for their hearts.

And pray that they make the right decisions.

And even when they fail, pray they come back.  Pray the Lord grabs hold of their hearts.  Pray they decide to love Jesus and make their relationship their own.

and this verse always seems to bring hope..

And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.  Philippians 1:6

Another lesson we learned with Jules: these kids are not ours, we just get the honor of raising them before they get to go home to be with Jesus.  So my challenge to you, as well as myself, is when you find yourself getting worried/nervous/uptight–PRAY.  As this world has gotten scarier, my relationship with Jesus has gotten stronger, because I know that He’s the one constant in it all.  He never changes. He never fails.  He is our only hope.  And their hope:)  So I’ll keep praying!!

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9 Responses to A Momma’s Heart

  1. Karen says:

    I found your website today looking for a “way” to fall in love with Jesus, again. And there you were. Writing about your intention to give God a month to rekindle the love you have for Him, that is maybe sagging just a little. Sadly, I know the feeling. But, what I found here is such an example of God’s love for us. My house is a mishmash of what we lovingly call Early American Garage Sale. However, it is not so prettily put together as some of your inexpensive finds. I lack the “eye” to put things together in an elegant/stylish way. But, I know what I like when I see it. And I LOVE what I see of your style. Our Father knew that I would.

  2. Karen Volinkaty says:

    I am always excited to see that you have added another blog entry. You always inspire me. Thanks, Allie.

  3. Katie Bevins says:

    I absolutely LOVE your website!!! You are an encouragement and blessing. May God bless you for all you do:)
    Love and Prayers from Ironton, Ohio

  4. Thank you for sharing…I must say, as we think about having children, my selfishness totally comes in…not just the physical changes, but the changes for life. I know they are a blessing :)

  5. Amber Jensen says:

    You write so beautifully from your heat! I really think that you should write a book, I would love to read it.

    Thank you for sharing your life with us!

    God bless you and your family

    Amber

  6. Susan Howard says:

    Very well stated ! I was the same way with my daughter Cortney :) now shes 21 & and in College….they grow up so fast & the best thing any parent can do is continue to teach them about our JESUS & continue to PRAY for them daily. Our children are faced with so many things in this world that we live in. And ALLIE these 2 babies are soooo CUTE :):):) That little lady is so much a BEAUTY QUEEN :) & TATE is so handsome :) LOVE the picture of them & Tates little TIE is so cute….but love the bear feet…that seems to make a picture for our little ones ! Have a BLESSED DAY :)

    Susan Howard

  7. Oh my goodness your little boy Tate sure looks like Ryan!!!! I know if from DC Schools, classmate of my son. I so enjoy your blog!!!!

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