Peace

How do you find peace in tough times…this is a question I get quite often.  And it is a really a hard thing to explain, except when you stand on what God promises.

The LORD gives strength to his people; the LORD blesses his people with peace.

Psalm 29:11

When you feel this sense of peace, when you can stand and smile and praise God at your daughters funeral, when you can’t even explain how you are not sobbing…you know it is God given peace.

I have to tell you, although it was beyond hard to say goodbye to sweet Juliet, Ryan and I were truly able to worship God, fellowship with family, friends, and amazing people who have helped get us through this journey with prayers and support, and even enjoy ourselves as we celebrated Juliets short life.

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light

Matthew 11:28-30

I know so many people say, how do you not get bitter?  How do you not blame God.  And for me, that has never been an option.  If we truly know who God is, that God is good, ALL the time…then we know that our struggles and trials do not come from God, it would be silly to blame Him and become bitter at the one person that can truly help us the most during these struggles.

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world

John 16:33

When Ryan and I have chosen to thank Jesus through this whole journey, to praise his name for the peace that he has given, for the comfort he has shown, for the strength he helped us with….he has blessed us.  The stories are endless to how God brought the right person at the perfect time to calm our hearts, the right message to uplift our spirits, the perfect wisdom in tense moments….He was and is SO faithful.  We choose to believe his word and stand on it.  We choose to believe that this world is not perfect, and things will happen in our life that we didn’t see coming or maybe would not have chosen for ourselves, but we know that it is not Jesus that brings this on us, but it is Jesus that brings us through it…stronger even than when we started.

If you are struggling with peace in your life, dig into Jesus.  Press into the Bible and find out who God is and truly believe His words.  Make Him a part of your everyday life and I promise you, peace will start to come.  Sometimes the Bible is overwhelming for people who don’t know where to start…if this is what you are thinking than I suggest this devotional, Jesus Calling by Sarah Young.  My Bible study ladies have introduced it to me and it is amazing how the Lord can speak through others straight to the heart.  It’s only a couple of paragraphs each day with verses to back it up.

I’m praying for peace for you and leaving with you with a few pictures from Jules’ sweet celebration…..

 A true celebration.  We had sparkly jewels for everyone to take to remember our precious Jules and her life!

A great tribute to a special little lady!

The picture of her looking gets me everytime, what  a sweetie pie.

and lastly, our final goodbye to our sweet baby girl…..

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18 Responses to Peace

  1. Lenore says:

    I found your blog yesterday through someone else’s blog (don’t remember where now). Your story has broken my heart, but at the same time has lifted me up. On May 18, 1984, I gave birth to a stillborn daughter when I was 28 weeks pregnant. They found on an ultrasound 2 days before that our baby had passed away. She had Turner’s syndrome (a chromosomal abnormality). They did not know why she died. My husband and I had been trying for 5 years to get pregnant when we got pregnant with her, we were devastated. I never saw my baby because I did not think I could bear to, so they just took her away without me ever seeing her. I agreed to her being buried in a cemetery the hospital had especially for stillborn babies. I remember when the doctor called to tell us our baby was gone, just crying out to God to help me get through it because I didn’t know how I was going to bear that grief. Life went on, and we had 2 sons and a daughter (who are now 26, 21 and 16). I never forgot my little girl though. I carried terrible guilt for years because of not letting them show me my baby and burying her properly, thinking I could just forget about it if I did not acknowledge it I guess.

    In 2003, at the age of 45, I accepted Jesus into my heart and started my walk with Him. I have let go of that guilt because He is carrying it for me. I long to see my daughter’s little face that I did not have the courage to look at 29 years ago, but I now know one day I will get to see her face in Heaven. Your testimony is just amazing, such courage in a horrible situation. You made me cry tears reading in the last 2 days, but I have also smiled seeing your daughter’s beautiful face. May God bless you and your beautiful family in the years ahead.

    • allie says:

      Wow Lenore, thank you for your amazing testimony! Praise the Lord we don’t have to carry the guilt anymore! and I am rejoicing that you found that peace in Jesus…the only one that can!!! Much love:):)

  2. Tiffany Trana says:

    Thank you for your testimony and for sharing your faith in God. You WILL hold her again, and she will be restored to perfect health. My father-in-law once said to me, “The only thing you can take to heaven with you is your children.” I loved hearing that and remind myself of that often!

  3. Shari Barberg says:

    Thank you for your testimony on who our God is. Am praying for you. May He continue to hold you ever so close.

  4. Starla says:

    Beautiful!!! The tears are flowing as I read this post. It brings back so many memories of what we went through 12 years ago when we also had to bury our 1st child! We only had 28 hours with her, but they are hours I would never give up for anything! God’s love and healing overwhelms me at times, and we are beyond blessed by His faithfulness, love, and healing. He will carry you in the days and months ahead as you learn to adjust to this new journey in your lives. I will keep you in my prayers daily, that God will continue to hold you and give you the strength you need. *hugs*

  5. Sheri Bommersbach says:

    Allie, you make me smile…God Bless you and Ryan!

  6. Georgia Truax says:

    Thank you for sharing your faith in God during this very trying time for you and yours. You always give me pause to connect with our Lord thru your wisdom, and peace. It continues to show that Jules was placed here for the betterment of all of us thru your strength, and faith in God. I can visualize her dancing in heaven at the feet of God. You have really inspired a lot of people, and I thank you again…………..

  7. Melannie says:

    Once again I am just in awe of your strength. What a beautiful tribute to your precious angel!! May God bless each & every one of you & may your hearts begin to heal. <3

  8. Riana Klaustermeier says:

    You are a blessing Allie…to me and my family, and to everyone that reads your heartfelt words. You have blessed my heart with peace and a stronger want to be even closer to The Lord! Knowing the ways He has touched your heart and built your faith in Him makes me want to spend the rest of my days loving, worshiping, and living for our amazing God! Thank you Allie, thank you from the bottom of my heart for the words you have written, the stories you have shared and your testimony in faith to God’s glory! I love your heart and your ambition to glorify our God and I can not begin to express to you the depth of my gratitude! GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS! ~Riana

  9. ~A says:

    High school can be tough, but sweet Jules showed me that the Lord is in control of all things & that every second is a blessing.

    Thank you showing us the deepest parts of your heart. Thank you for sharing the words God is whispering to your soul.

    You inspire me to fall more inlove with Jesus & to seek Him with a undying passion!

  10. Nicole says:

    You truly amaze me! Thanks for sharing this journey with all of us – you’re an inspiration to so many. Know that you have touched my life!! I want to make something for you, is there any chance you could email me?! I promise, this is not a scam :D
    Blessings to you!

  11. Kim says:

    Allie –
    While I do not know you personally, I have followed your journey through a mutual friend of ours. You are an incredibly strong and courageous woman for sharing your heart this way. I lost my daughter 3 years ago and your words have brought tears to my eyes and joy to my heart. This last entry is exactly how I feel but was never able to put it into words the way you have so beautifully done. Thank you for that.
    God bless you and your family as you continue to walk this difficult road.

    With love,
    Kim

  12. candice kisner says:

    I have shown the picture of sweet jules to a few friends & evertime I point out her eyes. to me she is speaking the truth from her eyes. I can’t help but look into them & think , she carries such wisdom in those baby eyes. such peace!

  13. Tina says:

    While I can’t imagine losing a child, I did feel enormous peace when my Grandpa passed away. We were very close and while I miss him and miss him being at our family events, I don’t really feel like he’s gone. He passed away just after my re-version and I have no doubt my peace, then and now, was a gift from God.

    Thank you for sharing your faith. Your words have encouraged me to dig deeper.

    God’s continued blessings to you and your beautiful family.

  14. Valerie says:

    Your post brought tears to my eyes and goosebumps! My wish is for everyone to experience the peace that only God can provide when life hands us the difficult times. Blessings to you and your family. I pray that you might continue to experience peace during this Advent season.

  15. Lori H says:

    So well written. Thanks for sharing this whole experience with us.

  16. Peg Beckstrand says:

    Thinking of you………….your amazing strength and inspiration of all your family has been through the past few months. Your explanations are wonderful. I wish you more PEACE throughout the holiday season. Please know you are all still in our thoughts and prayers. Give those 2 siblings lots of hugs as they will help guide both you and Ryan in the months, years ahead. Their faces and smiles will light up the dark times. Some day your family will all be together again………………till then PEACE………..

  17. Jaselyn Utecht says:

    Wow! Again, so beautifully written Allie!!! Thanks for sharing, love you guys!

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