Throughout this journey with Juliet, you all have heard my thoughts, feelings, emotions…raw and true. And through me you have heard a bit of Ryan’s heart….but he’s never got on and typed out all of his feelings. So, I was a bit surprised when he told me that he wanted to talk at Jules’ funeral. More so for the fact that I would never be able to get up in front of everyone and hold it together. I’d probably have walked up and right back down. But he knew that this was something he wanted to do, and I was so proud of him for it.
He told me one night he couldn’t sleep and ended up going down to the office and writing out his speech. I was quite surprised because I didn’t even know he was gone…but even more surprised when he told me it was 8 pages long. I said, the little notebook pages right honey? and he said no, the big printer paper pages. Oh dear, that’s when I got a little nervous. After much pleading I made him read it to me so he didn’t “make a fool” of himself. Loving and supportive…..I know:) Not that it should have been a huge surprise, but it was amazing. He did such a great job capturing his point of view on the whole journey, and even threw in his “Ryan” humor that attracted me to him as well. I couldn’t have been prouder that day listening to Jules’ daddy speak at her celebration of life. He is an amazing dad to all our babes, and I wanted to show him off to the rest of you….
So, after trying for hours to convert and cut and upload a video to youtube, our good friend Jeff saved the day and had it on there in a matter of minutes…thanks Jeff!
And thank you so much Larry for taping Jules’ funeral and Robert for editing, so we forever have the memories and can share it with everyone else.