6 Years ago today I was getting my hair all done up, perfecting my make-up, and putting on a beautiful white dress to walk down the aisle to my life long partner, Ryan.  I can honestly say that never in a million years did I think that we would be celebrating our 6 year anniversary in a church, for a wake for one of our little girls.

None of us have a magic crystal ball that we can look into and see the path the Lord will take us on….we can’t tell the Lord what we can handle and what we can’t.  He gets to decide that for us.  The one thing we do know is that if we truly place our faith and trust in Him, He will see us through til the end.  If you would have told me even a year ago, after having experienced the love of being a mom, that I would lose my little girl at just a little over a month old, I would think there’s no way I can do it.  Not me Lord.

We’ve had so many people tell us they could have never done this journey the way Ryan and I did..and I just respond, you could of, Jesus see’s you through.  You’ll never know if you can do it until you have to, and truly experience the love of others and of God to see you through every step of the way.  With that being said though, you have to know this Jesus to truly experience His love.  You have to have a personal relationship with him that goes beyond rituals and religion.  You have to rely on him for every breath and every move.  You have to give thanks in all circumstances and truly believe He is good…all the time.

So many of you probably know this Jesus I am talking about, but others might be wondering who He is…how they can know him in this way.  Throughout Juliets life I have had to tell myself Lord, she is yours.  If you can just bring one precious person to know you better, then her life will not be in vain.  It made it easier for me to give her back to Him knowing the bigger purpose she was serving.  To glorify God and ultimately bring people to know him better.

I’m pretty sure the next few weeks/months?? this lady is going to be taking some good “couch” time and adjusting to the new normal.  With that being said I’ll have a lot of free time on my hands.  Time that I’d love to chat/answer/be there for anyone that wants to know Jesus in a personal way.  Anyone that’s been trying to find peace but just hasn’t gotten there yet.  I have been so blessed by the prayer warriors that have gotten us through this time that I’d love to repay the favor for anyone else that needs it.  So, if you wanna take me up on it, you can email me at alliemay425@gmail.com with any questions or to get my number so we can chat:)

Thanks in advance to the so many people that are going to celebrate Jules’ life with us, and the so many that made me realize her purpose here on this earth.  To bring others to Jesus and spread pure love:)


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20 thoughts on “Celebrating….”

  1. Allie and Family –
    Thank you so much for continuing to share your story!
    I have been so blessed and challenged by the amazing grace and strength that the Lord has given you. Thank you for sharing so honestly and powerfully. My family will be praying for yours as you mourn the loss of your precious baby girl, trusting that He who has carried you to this point will continue to carry you until you see her again . Thank you also for sharing so boldly of the hope you have in Jesus, may God use Jules’ life to draw many to himself!
    Thank you Allie.

  2. Dear Ryan and Allison,

    Your life is so beautiful for the Lord. Thanks for sharing it all.
    My battle started i Sept. when I was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic
    cancer. I am a triumphant Christian living with cancer. Little Jules was a part
    of each of my days since Esther called it to my attention. I have prayed daily.
    My love to all. Jesus Reigns,

  3. Dear Ryan and Allison,

    Your life is so beautiful for the Lord. Thanks for sharing it all.
    My battle started i Sept. when I was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic
    cancer. I am a triumphant Christian living with cancer. Little Jules was a part
    of each of my days since Esther

  4. Ryan, Allie and kids
    Praying for you always, she is looking down and smiling. Oh what a sweet child of God. She is now sitting with Jesus and healthy.Wow, what an impact someone so tiny has made on the world. I just can’t get her out of my mind.So Sweet . My mom always says the only way to get thru anything is with Faith, Family and Friends. And I know this is true from experience. God Bless Jules Memory Always.
    Gail Nelson

  5. Allie,
    You are a special Mom. Bless you for being a dedicated Mama to Juliet, and servant to the Lord. Praise God for the glorious gift of life! Praise God that you were able to bond with your daughter, and she with the rest of your family! Your lives have been altered forever, and Juliet will be greatly missed. Thank you for your raw personal testimony during this blessed, yet difficult time. God continues to amaze me with the work He performs through those who love Him and let Him. I, too, am a special Mom who lost her son to a syndrome. Even though faithfully we are aware that their purpose and presence was of God and to the benefit of His glory, we are still their Mamas and they our babies. Loss of a child is HUGE. I am reminded of one of the most beautiful songs. The first time I heard it was at my son’s funeral . . . a friend had recommended it to our pastor. “Be Still and Know” by Steven Curtis Chapman. Years later, Steven Curtis Chapman’s daughter died and this same song was played at her funeral. Encouraging words for emotional times. I will continue to pray for spiritual strength & peace for you and your family. Thank you for your continued service to the Kingdom of our Lord & Savior Jesus Christ!

  6. Thank you for sharing your story. In this week of thanksgiving, although I do not know you, I can say that I am thankful that God chose you and Ryan to be Jules parents. You gave her life and now by you sharing her story there will be many that will meet this Jesus that you know so intimately. The next weeks and months will be difficult but I rejoice with you that Jules is dancing with Jesus right now in her perfect little body! Thank you! With love, The Howell’s

  7. Allie,

    Of all the weddings I’ve been to, you were one of the most beautiful, joyful, God-honoring brides I’ve ever seen. Can you even imagine how much more radiant Jules is today, celebrating up in heaven?!

    I prayed for you guys over and over today, and during praise and worship time at church this morning, it hit me: We were singing “No Greater Name Than the Name of Jesus” and I thought about Juliet’s first word. My mommy heart breaks knowing that her first word wasn’t “Mama” and yet, there is no sweeter name… her first word must have been “Jesus!”

    Love to all of you,

  8. Thank you for such a beautiful entry! I have been thinking of you and your family often in the last couple months…our prayers have been consistent and I am so thankful you know know the comfort of Jesus! He is the only way we can “make it” during these trials. Blessings as you contemplate, process this experience and continue to trust Him.

  9. God, please be with the family of Juliet Faith Lundeen. Give them the peace and comfort and strength that only you can give. Bless their days without Jules. Fill their hearts and minds and souls in a way that only you can do. Amen. I am thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers.

  10. Such a beautiful testimony of what Jesus can and will do with a willing spirit. I am truly amazed at how you’re coping with all of this, but then again, it’s really not you, but the Spirit working in you. I love the way you are spending it forward – just so awesome that I can’t even put it into words. G-d will continue to bless you throughout your journey and when it’s time to meet Jules again, you can expect a “Well done, good and faithful servent!’ from our L-rd and savior, Jesus Christ. Amen and amen.

  11. Allie and family,

    I know you must have heard this about a million times but YOU are such an inspiration to all who know or don’t know you, who have just stopped by to read your story, like myself. The grace you have showed and the way you have given this over to our Lord and Savior has been such an inspiration! You are so right that without Jesus I don’t think this could have been possible! I pray that even one person comes to Christ thru Jules story. She will be Celebrating with Jesus when that happens! What an awesome reminder for us all to put our children in Gods hands as He loves them more than we do!
    I will continue to follow your story and pray for you every time you and your family comes to mind. I would love to meet you in person someday, I am a friend of Sarah Kimball-Johnson and Kristen Traynor-Symes. I go to church with them.
    Blessings on you dear one!
    Wendi Blaubach

  12. I am new to your blog. I am truly touched by your post. After I read this I thought “wow God is working in a mighty way in this family! ” you are a blessing to many. May God continue to give you strength and comfort during this difficult time.

  13. Thank you for allowing us into your family’s life and letting us read of Juliet’s story! Her life has touched me in many ways and I believe many more lives will be touched with the hearing of her story! She is God’s perfect lil’ Angel and as you were dressed in white on this day, so is your little girl! Your family is never far from my mind nor does a prayer go by that I do not ask God to help ease your pain & be of comfort for you! We may never meet, but your family is forever in my heart!

    The world may never notice
    if a rosebud doesn’t bloom
    or even pause to wonder if the petals fall too soon
    but every life that ever forms
    or ever comes to be
    touches the world
    in some small way for all eternity
    the little one we longed for
    was swiftly here and gone
    but the love that was then planted
    is a light that still shines on
    and though our arms are empty
    our hearts know what to do
    every beating of our heart says
    We will remember you.”

    ~ Author Unknown

  14. You are such an amazing woman, wife and mother, and God knows exactly what he’s doing. My heart is with you today as you celebrate your sweet baby’s life; that will live on forever in your hearts. God’s blessings and peace to you, you are simply amazing.

  15. Through him we can do anything and our faith in the Lord is what will get us through the troubling days. I too am celebrating my wedding anniversary today but alone because my husband went home to the Lord in 2011 after a long battle with cancer. My heart is full of prayers for you and your family today and everyday. My Gods loving arms wrap around you today as you remember Jules.
    With love and prayers,

  16. Although I won’t be there to honor your sweet baby girl, please know that I am still thinking of you and your family every moment of today.

    Do not stand at my grave and weep
    I am not there. I do not sleep.
    I am a thousand winds that blow.
    I am the diamond glints on snow.
    I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
    I am the gentle autumn rain.
    When you awaken in the morning’s hush
    I am the swift uplifting rush
    Of quiet birds in circled flight.
    I am the soft stars that shine at night.
    Do not stand at my grave and cry;
    I am not there. I did not die.

    Blessings and God’s peace and comfort to you.

  17. God bless you today, especially. God is good, all the time. Can you imagine Jules wrapped in white – whole, healed, complete and perfect, in the arms of our Savior today. My heart goes out to you, mom….may His peace that passes understanding flow over you now and in the days ahead. Love, Wendy

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