All of my life I have loved Jesus. I met Him at a young age and accepted Him early on. I have lived by his commandments and was the typical “good girl” throughout most of my life. I do not swear, I have never drank, I married pure, I went to a Christian college, I go to church most every Sunday…yadda yadda yadda. Typical. What am I trying to say?? I love Jesus. Always have. I’ve never questioned my faith, never doubted God, always trusted Him.
But there is so much more!
In my spiritual life I have many ups and downs, and I’m hoping some of you can relate:) The highs and the lows….and it’s so easy to get so frustrated with you can’t quite get back up to that high with Jesus that you know you’ve experienced before. Sometimes life gets in my way.
I love God and Jesus with all my heart but lately I am not feeling in love with God. The difference?? I’m not thinking about Him all the time, talking to Him throughout the day, racing to meet with Him in the morning, yearning to hear from Him about every area of my life. Humbling….I know! So this post is for you mom…whom recently told me, I miss your blogs on your faith. I snapped at her and said I can barely get off a blog about our renovations let alone my time with God. And then it hit me…what are my priorities?? The new year always brings about resolutions and so I guess this is mine. To fall in love with Jesus again. I’m giving God a month, I know..your probably thinking that’s pretty pathetic. But what I mean is this…I am devoting a month to wake up early and spend time with Jesus and fall in love with Him again. I’m not saying that I’m going to be done with Him in a month…I’m just saying that I’m excited to see what He’s going to do in my life in this month. And also I have broken so many promises with God that I’m sure breaks His heart that I figured a month is a good start.
So today is day one, join me if you want:) I’ll keep you posted and hopefully you will too! So to end on here is my prayer for the next 30 days I got from the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan..amazing read by the way:)
Jesus, I need to give myself up. I am not strong enough to love You and walk with You on my own. I can’t do it, and I need You. I need You deeply and desperately. I believe You are worth it, that You are better than anything else I could have in this life or the next. I want You. And when I don’t, I want to want you. Be all in me. Take all of me. Have Your way with me.