Jules’ 2nd Birth Day

Baby Jules is becoming a big part of our family…and it’s feeling so normal.  A little too normal that it’s scary for this momma….

it feels like we should get to keep her forever…

She got lots of love, from everyone..

In fact, she never got set down once…

She is making a lasting impression on all of us..

Her auntie soney and uncle Matt came with a birthday cake to celebrate her 2nd birth day with us…

these memories will be priceless…

Juliet has still shown signs of being such a fighter.  We prayed for one, and we got one.  Last night we prayed that she wouldn’t fight quite so  hard.  We had 3 times we said goodbye to her, thinking she wasn’t going to make it when she would have apnea attacks and stop breathing and we couldn’t get her to start again.  But all three time she would eventually gasp for air and come back.  It is heart wrenching watching your baby and not being able to help.  We are so grateful for every moment, and the Lord must have a little more in store for her.  But every moment with her makes it even harder.  Harder for when we have to say goodbye.  Thank you for the prayers.

Today Juliet has been very peaceful.  She snuggles most of the time.  She is such a good baby girl.  She also is a good eater.  She’s been keeping all of her milk down and her tylenol as well.  She has had wet diapers and seems much happier.  We are so pleased!  Please pray that the peace continues.  Her mommy and daddy have a hard time with rough nights and watching her struggle.  And pray for strength for us to persevere.   My words are gone and all I can think of is how I need to get back to my little girl and give her some more snuggles!

Love to you all



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34 thoughts on “Jules’ 2nd Birth Day”

  1. Allie,
    I graduated with Ryan and have known him since we were kids. Not sure if he told you but my husband and I named our baby boy (born in April) Tate too. I’ve been following your story and just wanted to tell you that you and Ryan are such an inspiration to me. You have reminded me that every day, no matter what it brings, is a gift from God. Juliet is an angel in every sense of the word. She (and your story) have helped renew my faith. I will continue to keep all of you in my prayers.
    God Bless,

  2. Dear Allie and Family,
    Being a mother is the most tremendous experience and I can only imagine the love for each child grows an infinite amount each day. Before I had my son I never knew the amount of love I had to give until he was apart of me and now my life. I truly admire the amount of strength you have to give your love to your family, friends, bloggies, and to your faith.

    “The three most important things to have is faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is LOVE” 1 Corinthians 13:13

    Ryan has an amazing wife and mother of your children!

  3. You guys are amazing, so positive and loving. This is heartbreaking to read, I cannot imagine how it must feel. I am so sorry that you have to go through the pain of losing sweet little Juliet. My heart goes out to you and your family and I pray that God will give you peace in the hardest times.

  4. There are no words to tell you how much I admire you and your husband. May the Good Lord continue to give you strength to continue your Journey at this time. Please know that there are many BIG prayers going out to you day by day. God will continue to hold your family in the palm of his hand.

  5. How lucky that little precious girl is to have you all for her family. Sending lots of love and prayers to each of you.

  6. Christina Larsen

    Hi, you don’t know me, but I found your blog while looking for ways to paint furniture. I had no idea that I would be drawn into your life and your precious little one. I am a fellow sister in Christ and I just wanted to say that I pray for peace for your entire family and that as God is working out his final plans for your baby Jules may you all be blessed beyond measure. May you be wrapped in your fathers arms throughout this journey. She is beautiful and so blessed!!!

  7. Allie,
    Ronelle just gave me your blog in a letter that she wrote to me and my husband. I read your last 2 entries and sobbed. I am SO sorry that you have to go throu this horrible pain of losing Jules. There is nothing more difficult than having to watch your child die. We lost our Micah 3 years ago when he was 9 months old. The pain is still so raw. I, like you, find so much comfort in knowing that my child is safe with Jesus and cannot be thwarted by the pains of this world. I cling to Gods promises and pray that you will also be able to during these difficult days. Thank you for sharing your life, your joys and your deep pains. Christ is glorified in your testimony! You and your family are in my prayers on on my mind constantly!

  8. R'Shelle Bettger

    Allie and family,
    You have been in my prayers for the last few months since Esther shared your blog. Thank you for the updates and the pictures. Jules is beautiful! I continue to pray for strength and peace for you all during this bittersweet journey. Blessings.
    R’Shelle Bettger

  9. What a beautiful little girl you have been blessed with Lundeens. I have wept with you and smiled with you this week be reading your story. The right words just won’t come to my tongue. Just know that you have c community of love, support and prayers lifting your family up. Love, Brian & Katie Larson and family

  10. As in the blogging world, we usually find blogs by stumbling across them. It is how I came across yours. I’m sorry to hear of your heartbreak. The loss of a child is unlike any other. I know, for we lost our 16yo. son suddenly as the result of a car accident 14mo. ago. He was the oldest of seven. I just wanted to encourage you that you will get through this, with the LORD’s help, strength, and provision. Lean hard on Him. He is faithful. You are not alone and GOD loves you. He loves your husband. He loves your children. We set up a message board, as well, for those grieving the loss of a loved one. It’s http://www.grievingwithhope.org. I will be praying for you and your family during this difficult time and in the days to come. Another wonderful resource my husband and I have taken advantage of is http://www.GriefShare.org. It’s a christian support group for the bereaved. Please feel free to email me if you’d like more information or just to talk. May God continue to grant you strength and peace.
    Trusting in Him – Angie

  11. I am writing this through tears again. Dear, sweet Allie and Ryan I am lifting prayers for strenth, stamina and peace for you and your other children and entire families. I pray God will continue to bless you with ALL you need in the days ahead.

  12. Thank you for sharing the most wonderful gift God can give us and that is your Precious Little Girl. I pray for you and your family every day and hope that God’s gift even if it is for a short time she will bring you peace and joy. You are a VERY STRONG COUPLE! and I am so inspired by you both. Love and Prayers to you and your entire family.

  13. We continue to pray that God will hold you all close as you go through this difficult, yet precious time, and that He will fill you all with the peace that only He can give. Thank you for the privilege of letting us know sweet Juliet and seeing how God is using her precious life.

  14. Monique Tegelhutter

    Praying for peace and strength for your family. Thank you for sharing, so we know how to pray…
    Love you guys!

  15. Thank you for sharing your experience with so many people. We’ve thought about you, and our hearts have ached. It’s been many years, but we lost a baby at 20 weeks gestation. We were not fortunate enough to have the chance to get to know him. Your postings are a blessing to many people, expecially anyone going through something like this. You and your family are truly Christ’s love present on this earth.

  16. Thank you for your raw but honest words. Tears, praise, joy for your family and the precious days you’ve had with her. We continue to pray……

  17. Love the pictures !! Spend every moment you can with her. Thats a very swet picture with big sister kissing her . That was so touching. Prayers for all of you !!


  18. Aw, Allie.
    Thank you for continuing to share your story of beautiful Juliet. The pictures I’ve seen are so, so precious.
    God chose your family as the one for Juliet, and your quiet strength and faith show exactly why He did.
    Continued prayers of strength to let go when the time comes, and of peace/contentment for not only Juliet, but you as well.
    Thinking of you all.

  19. Shaama saber chahoud

    Hi, Allie and family…..i wentto high school with Ryan and have been following your story. Jules is such a beautiful little girl and what a blessing she is. Praying for strength for all of you that you can endure everything that is to be. Love the pictures, can’t stop staring at your miracle. Love and prayers.

  20. Jennifer Aarrestad

    Jules is so very beautiful! Ted and I are lifting you and you family up in prayer as you love on Jules. We ask for strength and peace with every moment!

  21. Thanks for sharing with us Jules homecoming moments. Your family has been continually in my prayers and I have been praying for peace, comfort, and strength. May you feel the peace that only our Lord can give you during this time.

  22. God Bless You and your family. I can’t imagine what you are going through but I know that baby is with her family that could give her joy and comfort in the time she has here on Earth. I pray that God continues to give you strength, that you feel His loving presence and that you continue to get JOY from this beautiful baby. You are a very special family.

    In Love

  23. My thoughts and prayers to all of you, she is a fighter and so determined to live and to be Loved. God Has his own plan . Kynlee and Tate, you are an amazing big brother and sister. She will never forget the love you give to her. I love the pictures of this precious child. Just makes me want to come there and snuggle her myself. Take Care and live each moment to the fullest.
    Gail Nelson and Family
    PS. My mom is sending prayers as she had a baby boy with the same , and she totally feels for you all.

  24. Allie,
    Thanks for being so open with your story and your lives. Even through the tears, what an inpiration! The photo of big sis kissing baby sis is absolutely priceless! We’ll keep praying…

  25. I just discovered your blog the other day for a decor something or other, and quickly found myself hours deep in reading your posts. I find myself praying for you daily, and being brought to tears at what you guys, and little Juliet are being forced to fight through. May she continue to be a blessing to you for the days, or hours, that you have with her. May Jesus’ arms carry you through, and cradle you in the depths of your heart.

  26. Thank you so much for the updates. You and your family are such a blessing. Such an inspiration. You are such a woman of God. Your love is so contagious! I lost a son and know the pain you are going through. May the love of Jesus continue to bless you!

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