Praying for a Miracle

I believe in a God that breathed life into dust.

I believe in a God that separated the Red Sea and raised Lazarus from the dead.

I believe in a God that sends fire from heaven and closes the mouths of lions.

And most importantly, I believe in a God that can heal Juliet.

Although I have absolutely not a doubt in my mind that He can heal her, surprisingly this is not my biggest prayer.  Selfishly it would be, and trust me…many times at night while I’m laying in bed alone with my thoughts that’s the only plea I can come up with while she’s kicking away.  Please Lord, Please Lord, Please Lord.  But when I look at the big picture…God’s picture…who am I to say what that holds??  Healing Juliet may be in His cards, or there may be something bigger for her life.  Something I might not even know until I can ask Jesus myself.  Already I am so grateful for the opportunities I have had to talk to people and share our story of sweet Juliet and see the impact she has made.  Already I can see the hand of Jesus in her story.  Already I can see miracles.

I know that there are people out there praying big prayers for Juliet and I am so grateful for that as well.  We have been anointed over, prayed over and prayed for by thousands of people.  And don’t worry, I have been the first to tell God that if you choose to heal her Jesus, I will glorify you with her story all the days of my life, it will not be in vain.  But there are a few other reasons why I don’t choose to stand on only this as well.

1.)  My God is the same today, yesterday, and tomorrow, whether I would choose to pick the outcome He does or not.  I don’t want my view of God or anyone elses to change if we proclaim a miracle in His name and that’s not what He has.

2.)  I don’t ever want to doubt that my faith was not big enough to heal Juliet.  The Lord does choose to heal, and He chooses not too.  I know that there are some answers we will never have until we get to heaven and I have to be okay with that.  I have to be okay that my human mind can not begin to understand the Lord and his workings.  I have to trust.  and I do.

3.)  I can’t let this momma’s mind think that she will give birth to a healed baby and then have the heartache of that not being so.  I’m choosing to let God write the ending to this story.  I choosing to believe that He is holding both Juliet and I through this, and I am choosing that he will be there the day we go in, to comfort, support, love and be with us no matter what we face.

My pastor once explained healings in a way that I have never heard it before, and to me it made sense.  Because otherwise It’s so hard to understand why the Lord wouldn’t heal us all.  He made mention of why do you think it is that we hear of all these miraculous healings in third world countries, in Africa and all over the world but aren’t seeing as many of them right here.  People being raised from the dead, disabilities being wiped away, the lame walking, etc.  I have to admit, I have thought this many times.  He said that in these countries there is no knowledge of God.  Many people for the first time are hearing his name and his works.  God shows these miraculous signs to glorify himself and show who He is.

In America most of us all own a Bible.  I think we have about 6 in our house.  There are churches on every corner.  There is truth.  We know who God is and we have faith.  God does not need to prove himself to us.  In other parts of the world that is not the case.  The darkness is too big.  Whether you believe this reasoning or not, to me it made sense.  I will not dismiss my God because He doesn’t heal.  I have truth and knowledge to know that God is love, God is good, God is in control.

So dear sweet Juliet, I pray that God uses you in a big way, and trust that his ways are perfect.  You are 35 weeks today and as active as ever, and though I do seem to get more nervous as we approach your due date, I am so proud of you for fighting and want you to know that you are impacting the kingdom.  Your life is not in vain.  hugs and kisses…

momma

The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised.

Job 1:21

 

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5 thoughts on “Praying for a Miracle”

  1. Hi Allie,

    You’ve been on my mind so much lately, and in my prayers… I think of you often and God specifically brought to mind your situation and this post while I was reading my Bible this morning. It’s a familiar Bible story we learned long ago in Sunday school, but in light of what you’re going through right now and this “Praying for a Miracle” post, it took on a whole new meaning for me.

    In Daniel chapter three we read about Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego. (Are you singing the Sunday school song in your head right now?) They wouldn’t obey the king’s direct order to bow before his new statue, and he was furious. In a rage, he ordered them to be burned alive in the fiery furnace. All of this was easy to remember. Their response to it is what struck me.

    Starting in verse 17 we see the response from these three brave young men. “The God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.”

    God IS ABLE to save your precious little jewel! These three guys knew for a fact God could save them too… yet standing near enough to feel the heat and smell the smoke, I’m doubting that they really thought that would happen. They probably assumed that they would die for their faith. Yet they say HE WILL RESCUE US. We tend to forget to think in eternal terms… which is the only way our God operates. Whether God chooses to save Juliet or allows her to go straight to heaven, she IS RESCUED! Her soul is eternally secure, as can all of ours be! What an incredible God we choose to serve! I love how the men acknowledge that God may decide not to save them (physically) and yet they stick to their guns and vow to do what is right, regardless of the cost.

    So Allie, just wanted to say I’m still thinking of you and praying you through this. Our God is one who can certainly work miracles. Just think of the miracle that each of your children’s lives are in the first place! Even if He chooses not to work this specific miracle in physically healing Jules, remember (because I know you already know) that she has been rescued. The father who loves her even more than all of us pulling for her here on earth holds her in the palm of His hand. What a blessed, secure, perfect place to be.

    Love to you all,
    Beth

  2. Your faith to trust God and find Him loving regardless of the outcome of this heartrending situation is already bringing Him glory. Several months ago, my pastor’s wife felt the Holy Spirit to prompt her to ask this question in regard to James 1:2-4: Why does my faith need to be tested? The answer He gave her was this: Because when things are going well, we’re happy, healthy and prospering, we tend to put our hope and faith in those things. God allows our faith to be tested to draw us and others to Himself; to burn off the dross in our life and produce beautiful fruit. I pray that the beautiful faith that you are exemplifying by God’s grace, will draw others to the knowledge of Jesus’ sacrifice on their behalf. My parents went through years of seeming unending trials and one thing that the Lord spoke to them was that as much as the trials were there to strengthen their faith, the trials were also there to strengthen others’ faith.

    I don’t know you personally {though I feel I know you through your blog}, I’ve never even met you in person, but I see beautiful fruit being produced and I am thankful for that grace of God in your life. Continuing to pray for you and Ryan, Tate, Kynlee and Jules.

  3. My dear Allie, I am witnessing God sized lessons that you are learning with abundant grace and that is oh so attractive. Your insights and growing faith will continue to attract the curious and the hurting because of the beauty of Christ in you. God bless you abundantly. Your story inspires me to trust when little faith begins to creep in. Love sent your way, Lori

  4. Though the fig tree does not bud,
    And there are no grapes on the vines;
    Though the olive crop fails
    And the fields produce no food,
    Though there are no sheep in the pen
    And no cattle in the stalls,
    Yet I will rejoice in the Lord
    I will be joyful in God my Savior

    Habakkub 3:17-18

    Thankful that you are able to rejoice in the Lord! Prayers for entire family!

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